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This seems an opportunity to, 'get something off my chest'.
It's an occurrence which over the years has come to mind less often, however, when it does, still bothers myself.
The background is that quite some years ago, when about 20, I was going through a religious/spiritual, philosophical turmoil.
Essentially, our elemental question, 'what's the meaning of life' had become frustratingly annoying.
It became so, to the extent I decided on drastic action...
I'm going to 'call out' God.
I am going to challenge that entity, whatever it may be.
So I did and in a quieter moment explained to 'God' my straightforward rationale.
I had tried my best to make some sense of it all, read everything conceivably related, especially in the local public library, listened to anyone who offered an insight and to no avail.
I put it to God that surely it wasn't unreasonable to ask for help, some guidance, anything which might be of assistance.
It wasn't long afterwards, when one day and with this request upmost in my thoughts, I visited the local library. Had anything changed... perhaps a new book of wisdom had arrived.
No...
...and then something entirely unexpected did appear.
I suddenly had the strongest impulse to visit a particular book section and the thought came into ny head, 'the answer you seek is here', or, 'this is what you're looking for'... something unequivocally along these lines.
I seemed to be directed to one particular book shelf. I did not look at any other books on the way there.
It made no obvious sense, this section of the library held little, if any, material of personal interest.
I stopped before the shelves I felt compelled to visit. It was a separate, corner shelf unit containing mainly reference books relating to art, photography and various atlases.
One book did, however, instantly catch my attention.
It only required a momentary appraisal to realise this truly what I had been searching for.
When back home and having time to reflect on its contents, it was an epiphany.
I knew instantly that although the source of the book's contents would be questionable to many, that didn't matter at all.
It was a method of provision to myself.
For here, no longer did we have a jealous God, a God of wrath and rage.
Here was a benign, loving and forgiving God.
Now this was indeed, much more like it.
It wasn't important whether every, or even one single, sentiment came directly from God.
The essence was, would he have endorsed the very same.
(Whether my philosophy has altered since isn't relevant).
Looking back now... was it all merely a coincidence...
My present perceptions have to be affected because of more recent events.
The story of the enigmatic and immensely symbolic unicorn ring, which apparently appeared from nowhere in my granddaughter's bedroom is related here:
https://forums.forteana.org/index.php?threads/contact-from-beyond-the-grave.63685/post-1965377
If both my seeming guidance to that book and the ring's origins are no more than coincidental sequences of events, they are extraordinarily complex.
The alternative is, of course, they are taken at face value and even my own inheritant scepticism remains unable to find flaws in either, because there simply aren't any.
The book I discovered is available to read online and will, I suspect, be known to many here.
'God Calling'
https://www.twolisteners.org/
Despite frequent vists to my local library (no internet in those days!) the reason I had never come across the book previously is intriguing.
That separate, corner shelf unit only held one type of book publication, hence atlases and art, photography reference works, etc.
It was for oversized books, too large to fit on the shelves where they normally would be catalogued.
Why was, 'God Calling' there?
It was a sizable large print edition, designed for those with reduced sight abilities.
I would never, normally, have been anywhere near this section.
Which bothers me...
It's an occurrence which over the years has come to mind less often, however, when it does, still bothers myself.
The background is that quite some years ago, when about 20, I was going through a religious/spiritual, philosophical turmoil.
Essentially, our elemental question, 'what's the meaning of life' had become frustratingly annoying.
It became so, to the extent I decided on drastic action...
I'm going to 'call out' God.
I am going to challenge that entity, whatever it may be.
So I did and in a quieter moment explained to 'God' my straightforward rationale.
I had tried my best to make some sense of it all, read everything conceivably related, especially in the local public library, listened to anyone who offered an insight and to no avail.
I put it to God that surely it wasn't unreasonable to ask for help, some guidance, anything which might be of assistance.
It wasn't long afterwards, when one day and with this request upmost in my thoughts, I visited the local library. Had anything changed... perhaps a new book of wisdom had arrived.
No...
...and then something entirely unexpected did appear.
I suddenly had the strongest impulse to visit a particular book section and the thought came into ny head, 'the answer you seek is here', or, 'this is what you're looking for'... something unequivocally along these lines.
I seemed to be directed to one particular book shelf. I did not look at any other books on the way there.
It made no obvious sense, this section of the library held little, if any, material of personal interest.
I stopped before the shelves I felt compelled to visit. It was a separate, corner shelf unit containing mainly reference books relating to art, photography and various atlases.
One book did, however, instantly catch my attention.
It only required a momentary appraisal to realise this truly what I had been searching for.
When back home and having time to reflect on its contents, it was an epiphany.
I knew instantly that although the source of the book's contents would be questionable to many, that didn't matter at all.
It was a method of provision to myself.
For here, no longer did we have a jealous God, a God of wrath and rage.
Here was a benign, loving and forgiving God.
Now this was indeed, much more like it.
It wasn't important whether every, or even one single, sentiment came directly from God.
The essence was, would he have endorsed the very same.
(Whether my philosophy has altered since isn't relevant).
Looking back now... was it all merely a coincidence...
My present perceptions have to be affected because of more recent events.
The story of the enigmatic and immensely symbolic unicorn ring, which apparently appeared from nowhere in my granddaughter's bedroom is related here:
https://forums.forteana.org/index.php?threads/contact-from-beyond-the-grave.63685/post-1965377
If both my seeming guidance to that book and the ring's origins are no more than coincidental sequences of events, they are extraordinarily complex.
The alternative is, of course, they are taken at face value and even my own inheritant scepticism remains unable to find flaws in either, because there simply aren't any.
The book I discovered is available to read online and will, I suspect, be known to many here.
'God Calling'
https://www.twolisteners.org/
Despite frequent vists to my local library (no internet in those days!) the reason I had never come across the book previously is intriguing.
That separate, corner shelf unit only held one type of book publication, hence atlases and art, photography reference works, etc.
It was for oversized books, too large to fit on the shelves where they normally would be catalogued.
Why was, 'God Calling' there?
It was a sizable large print edition, designed for those with reduced sight abilities.
I would never, normally, have been anywhere near this section.
Which bothers me...