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I know how scary sleep paralysis can be. When I was younger I used to enjoy going to sleep and dreaming, it was the only time when my imagination could go into full flight and I sometimes actually looked forward to going to sleep as I would plan what I would dream about.
When asleep I always became aware that I was dreaming, and would then start to mould my dreams. If I ever had a nightmare I would always become slightly concerned before realising that I was dreaming and the statement usually made in my sleep was 'oh s**t, its just a dream!' and I would then proceed to conciously wake myself up.
I had done this at least a hundred times as I seemed to dream every night - as I still do. One night, however, I was having a particularly horriffic nightmare when I realised what it was and then decided I should wake up. I did just that, and was sitting up in my bed, breathing a sigh of relief at a 'close escape' from the monster, when a figure walked past the end of my bed, not even a figure really, it was like a 'cut-out' sillouette. I tried to scream, but nothing would come out of my mouth, I then couldn't move. I conciously realised that I has not actually woken myself up, but had only 'half completed' the job, leaving me in limbo. It was the scariest moment I have ever had in my life and needless to say that I rarely wake myself up from dreams now, even though I am often fully aware that what I am experiencing is a dream and that it is not 'real'.
I still enjoy going to sleep and dreaming, and know full well that some of the dreams I have are the most vivid/odd/loopy dreams anyone I have ever met has had, and I have these on a nightly basis, I think they're great but I try not to interfere with them so much as I used to. Does anyone else have such awareness of self in dreams and such control over them as I have?? I dream every night, and seem to remember every dream I have. Lst night I have three and I can remember them like they were video taped?!?!
When asleep I always became aware that I was dreaming, and would then start to mould my dreams. If I ever had a nightmare I would always become slightly concerned before realising that I was dreaming and the statement usually made in my sleep was 'oh s**t, its just a dream!' and I would then proceed to conciously wake myself up.
I had done this at least a hundred times as I seemed to dream every night - as I still do. One night, however, I was having a particularly horriffic nightmare when I realised what it was and then decided I should wake up. I did just that, and was sitting up in my bed, breathing a sigh of relief at a 'close escape' from the monster, when a figure walked past the end of my bed, not even a figure really, it was like a 'cut-out' sillouette. I tried to scream, but nothing would come out of my mouth, I then couldn't move. I conciously realised that I has not actually woken myself up, but had only 'half completed' the job, leaving me in limbo. It was the scariest moment I have ever had in my life and needless to say that I rarely wake myself up from dreams now, even though I am often fully aware that what I am experiencing is a dream and that it is not 'real'.
I still enjoy going to sleep and dreaming, and know full well that some of the dreams I have are the most vivid/odd/loopy dreams anyone I have ever met has had, and I have these on a nightly basis, I think they're great but I try not to interfere with them so much as I used to. Does anyone else have such awareness of self in dreams and such control over them as I have?? I dream every night, and seem to remember every dream I have. Lst night I have three and I can remember them like they were video taped?!?!