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Does anyone else experience this? Its always the same, if I meditate or stay alert as i drift off to sleep ( sometimes I dont have a choice) I go to sleep with a very quiet yet alert mind, sometimes i can feels waves of energy flowing through my body, my mind feels expansive, very alive, on the brink of...? something.
As I enter into the sleeping state i realise Im actually aware of being asleep, bizarre as that may sound, then the whole contents of my mind start to spill into awareness,sometimes Its truly horrifying and painful, i will experience myself dying in various hideous ways..over and over again, ill float over towns and forests in full lucid technicolour, monsters, angels and all manner of mind boggling creatures vie for attention, loud whistlings, buzzings and deafening white noise will ring in my ears, the only option is to let go, let everything unfold, it feels like a kind of death to do that though and I havnt so far had the courage to let go completely and see where this will take me.
I havnt had this for a while as its so bloody exhausting, every night is an adventure, Ive been holding back and losing myself in mundane day to day activities, yet I know Im gonna have to see this through, It feels as if its something that has to be pursued to the full in order to get to some sort of clarity beneath.
i would be very interested if anyone else has similar experiences, or if not then try staying completely alert and relaxed as you go to sleep, watch like a hawk everything that is going on in your mind without any sense of judgement or control, its a kind of absolute letting go combined with a full and all encompassing attention.
good luck!
As I enter into the sleeping state i realise Im actually aware of being asleep, bizarre as that may sound, then the whole contents of my mind start to spill into awareness,sometimes Its truly horrifying and painful, i will experience myself dying in various hideous ways..over and over again, ill float over towns and forests in full lucid technicolour, monsters, angels and all manner of mind boggling creatures vie for attention, loud whistlings, buzzings and deafening white noise will ring in my ears, the only option is to let go, let everything unfold, it feels like a kind of death to do that though and I havnt so far had the courage to let go completely and see where this will take me.
I havnt had this for a while as its so bloody exhausting, every night is an adventure, Ive been holding back and losing myself in mundane day to day activities, yet I know Im gonna have to see this through, It feels as if its something that has to be pursued to the full in order to get to some sort of clarity beneath.
i would be very interested if anyone else has similar experiences, or if not then try staying completely alert and relaxed as you go to sleep, watch like a hawk everything that is going on in your mind without any sense of judgement or control, its a kind of absolute letting go combined with a full and all encompassing attention.
good luck!