Yes Quicksilver, it can be VERY hard to find the time! Especially with the pressures of work and family and other halves who don't have the same beliefs/questions. I just sneak off and do it, or tell my partner "think what you like, just don't come in the bedroom for the next hour" heh heh.
It can also be very difficult to find other people whose objectives, beliefs and/or practices are compatible with your own, which is why I do not have the benefit of any group-based activities such as you describe ...... it would be nice to get together with other people to do ritual work rather than argue about who knows most about who wrote what first and what they meant by it ....... I have considered doing a working to encourage this, but for now I am content with my solo practice.
I also agree with JerryB that it is all largely to do with states of consciousness.
This is why I perform the lbrp daily, or a version of it, it definitely changes my awareness (it took quite a few months of empty recitation of it for this to happen) and I can use that altered state in a number of ways ....
I can simply enjoy it as a part of my day in which I am aware of the raw power of the universe flowing through me ... it's quite uplifting afterall.
Or I will read tarot (or I Ching) to try to gain some insight into what is going on in my life (I read tarot extremely psychologically - none of that "you will meet a tall dark stranger" nonsense, more "hmmm the high priestess reversed in the in the realm of non-physical influence ..... perhaps issues relating to my understanding of myself as a woman are relevant here".
Or the divination will be like an election to examine the validity of and potential outcome of a magic(k)al operation I am planning ...... a good way of avoiding the car crash scenario mentioned in my previous post .....
..... then if the divination is favourable I may perform the operation, perhaps creating and/or charging a sigil or talisman, building up or directing energy to or against its target, or out into the cosmos, using visualization and appropriate symbolism (be it astrological, elemental etc etc) to achieve my goal, which may be of a "spiritual" or "material" nature ...... (this is the bit that most resembles "spells" ..... ).
I do not currently evoke (e.g. Bardon-esque elemental evocation, goetic "summoning" or chaos magic(k) style servitor/thought-form/egregor evocation) although I am currently reading up on this aspect and may well attempt to "conjure up" e.g. an entity to protect my home, or even seek to parley with some e.g. goetic spirit in the hope of gaining wisdom or favour some time in the near future .......
I am quite aware that a lot of this stuff comes from all sorts of dubious sources ... medieval grimoires claiming ridiculously to have been written by King Solomon himself, or Christ's brother or whoever , sexually predatorial 1920's "visionaries" who did a bit of yoga one time and decided to try start a religion, annoying toothy californians full of new-age self-empowerment rhetoric, cynical money-grubbing misanthropes, tree-hugging drop-outs and acid casualties and lunatics (did I forget to insult anyone's spiritual path?!
) but I hear 'em out, give it a try and maybe adapt it a bit and if it works for me I keep it ...... and I cannot state it often or vehemently enough ..... it does work!
So Niles - you are quite correct - I am sure that I sound completely insane, and I have made myself this way with magic(k)al thinking! But, I feel ..... calmer ... more connected .... it's hard to describe .... it's like the feeling you get the first time the meditation you have been trying to get to grips with actually works for you ... instead of lying there feeling slightly stupid, going through the mental motions, wondering what the hell the point is ... the first time it actually WORKS and you go spinning off into space without bound and time without meaning, formless, ineffable .....
... a hallucination, a delusion, or a revelation? Does it matter, are they any different from one another etc etc .... that old business!
(sorry ... guess i am in verbose mode today ...)