Sudi - Your interpretation was amazing - I got shivers reading it, it was so "close to the bone" if you know what I mean.
sudi said:
I am going to take a guess that the new room you've been offered is perhaps in a price range that somehow compromises your sense of integrity. Maybe it is being offered at a lower price than you think it's worth and you believe that you will be expected to compensate for this "favor" in other ways. It could be that on the surface the offer seems fine, but you are, nonetheless, feeling that you will somehow be given the short end of the deal in the long run.
It is definitely cheap, yes, and even the deposit is cheap. I am of the ilk that does get suspicious of these things, and it does seem too good to be true.
My biggest fear is that I will not live up to the expectations of the people I will be living with. I think they are looking for someone way more sociable than me, and I fear that when I dissapear into my room to go online and do all the little solitary things I like to do, they will be dissapointed.
I can see them getting fed up with asking me to join in, even though I do sometimes, and give up in the end, and refer to me as the miserable housemate or something.
sudi said:
So. Even though the offer may appear too good to refuse...it has created a dilemma. Hence your attempt to keep all the negative "issues" concerning this out of your consciousness. (These would be the intruders in the dream that you are trying to lock out of your "ideal place." The "ideal place" being another representation of your "house" or persona.) But they have forced their way in in your dream anyway, which is an effort on your subconscious' part to get you to handle this issue now, no matter how you wish you didn't have to at this point in time. There is an immediacy to the dilemma.
Dilemma is the exact word I used last night when I found out they wanted me. My brain has been totally avoiding the issue all day. I tried to think about it on the train, writing a list of pros and cons again, but I just couldn't focus. I have to decide right now, and let them know if my decision is to not take it, as is only fair.
sudi said:
Your next step is to try to shout at the dream people, (your subconscious is really shouting at your conscious,) that the ideal place is "not for sale." This could be another way of your subconscious saying that you feel that you cannot be "bought." Shouting sometimes means that your subconscious really wants you to pay special attention to what it is that you're shouting.
Yes - there is a little voice in my head going "doubt! I am having doubt! Gut feeling here! Obey your gut!". I'll explain below why I am just as head-fskced about it tonight as I was last night.
sudi said:
The time you have chosen in the dream (11:00,) might be significant, also. Did you experience any housing or moving dilemmas when you were 11 years old? Sometimes the numbers in dream will indicate another time period or age when a parallel issue popped up. Or maybe something happened 11 years ago that was similar.
You might feel like you have discussed this too much with some friends(s) since there are intruders in the dream examining your personal belongings, which can be representations of your inner self. The dream people are also looking at your diary; it could be that you are subconsciously feeling overexpposed or vulnerable right now because of frank discussions with your friend, IRL.
Or, these nosy dream folks could just be parts of your own psyche weighing the issues (the plusses and minuses,) of the potential move, and they are looking at the things that you don't feel like defining or seeing clearly right now. Can you remember any articles that the intruders are looking at specifically? This might give you a clue as to some individual thing that you need to confront in order to make a comfortable decision.
The time thing doesn't ring any bells, but the friends thing does. Everyone I know thinks I should go ahead with it. Yesterday I had a discussion with a friend I have strong feelings for and he was rather patronising about my thinking nobody wanted me (this is before I found out I got it), and psychoanalysed me in a rather offhanded way. Also a colleague intimated that this is just like me to get in a stress, which was annoying because I really don't think he knows me that well.
The objects they were looking at were my bed, and some bowls of gelatinous stuff next to it, like fish bowls, kind of alien looking. I have no idea what they were.
sudi said:
Your choice of a small dog in the dream, while also describing yourself as a "scaredy cat," could indicate that your subconscious doesn't really want to subdue your initial instinct (the scaredy cat,) very much, or it would have selected a more intimidating dog. I think your subconscious wishes you to pay attention to your very first gut reactions to this dilemma, whatever they may have been.
(Many people find small barking dogs very bothersome, so this lap dog, as representative of your instinctive reaction to this offer, could also be a very attention getting animal...depending on how you feel about that breed of barking dog IRL.)
My fault for being unclear here - the noise I was making when I woke up just reminded me of the dog, it wasn't in the dream.
Something else of interest though might be that this "ideal flat" has featured in my dreams before, and it's had people invading it before. I only just remembered this. It's a big flat and it's gorgeous, open plan. Really large room with a really large open outside terrace. Also it has had a secret room in it before, which is also huge, and has leather seating round the outside and leather wallpanelling (not my style!) and is basically an abandoned music studio or something. It's gorgeous anyway, and in the last dream I had it got snapped up by someone else, a so called "friend" of mine who didn't consider my feelings but just said she was having it.
Oh god I'm remember loads of dreams about houses, hidden rooms and people invasions now!!!
Thank you so much for your interpretation. I am going to have to think long and hard about things, even though I have little time to do so.
What's so annoying, as I said above, is that everyone says I should do it - move. Then I convince myself for a while and get all excited, but the nagging doubt is still there. It is just me being nervous after past problems with living with people, or do these "gut feelings" have a grounding in some reality which my mind is refusing to accept.
If I turn it down, I will never know if I made the right decision. If I move in and it all goes wrong, yes - I can just come back home, but undoubtably it will be a big blow to my self esteem, which isn't exactly healthy as it is.
Am I thinking about this too much??!!
Should I just take the risk... I'm always saying life's too short to hold back.
I really don't know what to do. Anyone got a coin?
Sudi - once again thank you. This has been invaluable, and given me a lot to think about.
Pinkle
