More on different kinds of time
I came across something that illustrates what I was trying to say above:
"Mechanized, time is abstracted from the biological and intuitive rhythms of our lives and from the human scale of that unit of mnemonic time that is bounded by the grandparent's memories of childhood, as those memories are narrated for and changed in the memories of the grandchildren. In the direction of time-is-money, the mechanization of time obviously anticipated and reflected the needs of industrialized, televised, computerized society. But once mechanized, time begins to play strange tricks on memory..." p73
The above quote is from a book called "The Farther Shore: A natural History of Perception" by Don Gifford (Faber and Faber, London, 1990). 'Watch time' and 'experience time' are two seperate things, which mostly match each other in our minds. However it is possible for the two to become out of sinc, remember boring lessons at school or 'time flies when you're having fun'?
In the book Gifford looks at the way our perceptions of the world have changed as our culture has changed. He talks about Romantic time, best exemplified by William Wordsworth, which believed that the experience of time-past could be fully remembered and captured thus enriching time-present. This splits time into three seperate places, future, past and present. In this way of thinking all are nearly uncapturable because we can never relive the past, the present is the past as soon as it happens and the future is a lad we can never reach, because it is the land of the present when we get there.
He points out that standardised time is a relatively recent event and one that is yoked to the needs of production and commerce. It fits our society but it does not neccessarily fit us. As he says
"Our time rhythms are constatly being modified, sometimes by things as simple as the recent change in fashion from clock dial to digital display. That change substitutes what sounds like numrical precision, "It's 4:46," for the less precise spatial designation, "It's quarter to five."... The appearance of numrical precision and the widely advertized accuracy of timepieces based on quartz crystals seems symptomatic of the false hope that because we are increasingly capable of precise measurements of time, we are increasingly capable of management of time." p100
At the point in time where my experience of time altered I had stopped doing the majority of things that constitute normal life. I kept my own time table, ate when I chose, slept when I could, travelled only on foot around my immediate area. Gifford discusses the difference beteen past times and our own in terms of interactions in space and distance ie speed. He mentions William and Dorothy Wordsworth in 1797-98 spending much time simply wandering the English Lake District on foot;
"In spite of the eccentric nature of their behaviour, they give me a glimpse of a profoundly different attitude toward the rhythms of life on foot. If I were on foot (and there were no telephone) and my collaborator lived four miles away in South Williamstown, how different the timespace of this town would be. I think of myself as spatially and temporally liberated by the everyday technologies a hand, but my freedom means that the rhythms of my experience are in a different sort of bondage. Of course I could choose to walk, but this is a perverse choice rather than unquestioning acceptance of a given. In 1798, I would have been bound to the rhythm of walking but free to observe the intimate textures of the space around me and inhabit the rhytms of my own thoughts and conversation. Conversely, I am free to overleap the four miles to South Williamstown but bound because I cannot more than glance at what I'm overleaping...." p107
Maybe this applies to my experience. Maybe I managed to get into a similar relationship with the world as the Wordsworths by totally removing myself from all of the obligtions and timetables of the civilized world. Through my own thinking I changed my own peception of time, I stopped using agreed rhythms and used my own.
Can anyone shed ay light?